Baby Ticker

Time has really flown by, but it feels like it's moving slower than ever at this point! I remember when I added that baby ticker gadget to my blog it said "139 days to go" or something. I did a post a while back when it said 99 days to go because I was so excited to be in the double digits. Anyways if this baby arrives before I'm into single digits that would be sweet, but who knows...

Tomorrow is my official last day of work... CRAZY. I can't believe it, the changes are so surreal in my life right now and I only hope to be prepared for them. I really hope I can do my best to prepare but lately I've been so busy I feel I've only been able to prepare with the materialistic things for the most part. Sometimes when I stop to take a moment and think about the bridge I'm going to be crossing so soon into motherhood almost makes my head spin. Which I hope doesn't sound negative, because I'm not feeling that way at all. I am simply becoming more and more aware of how vast the change is going to be. There is so much to becoming a parent that I don't even know I need to be aware of at this point. So however long I have before she comes and I'm finished work I hope to try to relax, spend a lot of time on my knees, catch up on sleep, and continue to take it all in.
One thing I have REALLY come to understand more and more everyday is why our Heavenly Father wants to send his children down into the unit of a family. My heart breaks to think that some women are in my position without the support of a husband. I'm so glad I have Jason. The support I feel from him lately is amazing and it makes my heart melt to know how excited he is. He's been so sweet, and he's been so helpful with the "nesting". He knows I stress out at work while being there I am not being able to be in the home with little energy I have left and can't use to prepare, clean and organize for the baby. In the last couple weeks he has had the couch steam cleaned, all the blinds cleaned (which is a HUGE task in it's self), the bathroom, tub, fridge, floors and load after load of piled up laundry. He even stripped off the cocking that was between the laminate and baseboards and re-did it. He has been staying on top of the house lately so wonderfully and I am just overjoyed. I only hope I express how happy it makes me so he knows how much it really means to me. So Jason if you read this (which you do sometimes) just know I love you and THANK YOU!